It seems to me that as things have sped up, with amazing technology available, there’s a new condition going around. There is a distinct lack of patience, and I know all about it being impatient!
UTW – Unwilling To Wait
It’s not everybody by any stretch of the imagination, however it seems to affect a lot of people. I’m talking about pedestrians that have to make a mad dash across the street in front of my car. Even when there are zero cars behind me. Or the person who pushes in front of everyone to get on the train before anyone else can get off. Or it might be the customer who must queue-jump at the cafe, because they have an important meeting to go to. Call me old fashioned yet what ever happened to being polite and taking care of other people?
Has our hyper connection to the rest of humanity via our devices and wifi switched off the part of our brain that realizes we have time? That is aware that we are here in relationship to other people. That while we might feel at the centre of our own universes, kindness towards others is a win/win situation. We do have time to stop and make space for others. Crossing the street, or in a queue, or wherever, we are always free to give a little before we receive.
Journey to Pregnancy
When I think about my journey to pregnancy, I was definitely in this category of ‘unwilling to wait’. I wasn’t patient with my body and the emotions I had to process to reach a place of peace and acceptance of the hand I’d been dealt. There was no logical reason for my condition and I railed against my diagnosis and the doctors who insisted that there was and that I should just deal with it. I wanted my body to miraculously recover and just get on with the job of ovulating and menstruating as per the earlier routine. Unfortunately my body had different ideas and now that I’m on the other side of the journey, I appreciate the challenges I had to face to get to where I am now.
If you are struggling with not ovulating, or ‘unknown infertility’ or some other diagnosis, I’m sure that is the last thing you want to hear. The insinuation that you have to appreciate your situation. From my experience however, patience and acceptance are the path towards emotional healing and peace. Once you find that place of peace everything gets easier. For me, meeting my life partner and now falling pregnant are the outcomes of finding that internal place of peace. I believe everyone can have that, even if the outcome might look different for you.
Patience in Pregnancy
Now that I’m pregnant – almost 27 weeks as I type – I have to learn patience again in a new way. This bun has to cook before it leaves the oven of my belly. I have to be patient with my body as it adjusts to the new life growing inside of me. My pre-pregnancy energy does not match my current energy state and I simply can’t do what I use to. I can’t rush this thing, nor can I demand for baby to arrive sooner than when the time is right.
So in all of this, I’m sure that the little one growing inside of me is teaching me many lessons including the lesson of patience.